So, suddenly you’re 32. What else is there to discover now? Just kidding, of course. You’re never too old to learn. To want. To do. Neither am I. Despite the gray hairs, the wrinkles and shouting ovaries, I still feel young and I secretly actually am still pretty young. And I have lots of things I want to do. The other day I wrote about my 5 biggest professional goals, but what would I like to learn, do or think on a personal level?
Let go of insecurities
When I was 16 I thought adults really had it all figured out. Adults had plenty of money. They never ever needed anything from their parents. They were all homeowners. And above all: they were so sure of themselves. Boy, was I wrong. Not everyone might show it, but all adults have insecurities, knots, and fears. As do I. And sometimes I’m done.
I know I’ll never be able to let go ALL of my insecurities, but it would be nice if I could do it on/with some aspects of my life. Things are getting better, though, and I hope by staying actively on top of things, I’ll be able to reduce them even further. A long-term project, I guess.
Not let things get to me so much
Some things I can let go, some things I can’t. Often it’s the most irrelevant things that get to me. And make me lie awake at night. Tossing and turning. I just want to see the positive in things and in myself, to be able to let go of the trivial things in life. The trivial things people say.
Have a less chaotic mind
Mannn, DO NOT, I repeat DO NOT, come over unless you call in advance. Otherwise, you’ll be stepping into the most chaotic house in the world. Not that there’s trash lying around everywhere. Nope. But a lot of things are placed somewhere you normally wouldn’t. That’s just who I am. Not just as a parttime (like 1 percent) homemaker, but mostly as a person. In general. I do make to-do lists, but I forget about them. Or postpone what’s on them. My mind is such a chaos, while I need a quiet mind to move forward. But how to turn the most chaotic person into a slightly less chaotic person?
Let go of the (in)secure future
Another thing that stuck from when I was 16. When I was younger I had it all planned out. I would have kids by then. A house by then. And be married by then. Well, all those ‘thens’ have passed and I don’t have any of those things. And that’s okay though, I was able to let go. Despite not having any of it, I have a great life. Marriage and kids are not THE recipes for happiness.
Sometimes I do stick to the future quite a bit. And of course it’s good to look ahead, to dream and work towards whatever you want, but letting go is strong. And I wish I was better at that. I don’t know what life has in store for me. And that should be okay.
Travel from east to west USA, or the other way around
An easier goal. I’m not a world traveler or a traveler per se. But there is one thing I would love to do and that is: drive a Winnebago across the US. From east to west, the other way around, or past all the national parks. I’m up for all of it. This is something I really want to do. And eat hamburgers along the way. And milkshakes. And all the other wonderful foods that the US has to offer.
Buy and decorate a house
Buying a house will always be on top of my list, no matter how hard I will try to let it go. A little. This is probably not something we’ll do here, right now, but maybe in a couple of years. And I’m so looking forward to that. Finally, a house where we’ll actually stay. A house I can actually decorate the way I (we?) want to. No worries, no pinks. But colors, yes. At least in one room.
Live in a foreign country
I never used to be open to that. At all. But I think living somewhere else in Europe would be a good experience for me. Whether I will like it or not. But most of all, I think I will develop so much on a personal level. Wherever that may be. But hopefully a warm country. Someday.
Understand the Law of Attraction
AGAIN. Yep, sorry. I just can’t let it go. I keep reading about it, I follow people who live their lives that way on Instagram and I want to know how it works so I can implement it into my own life. It’s a process. But a fun one.
Have you ever lived in a foreign country?